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(I came here not exactly having a purpose of what I want to say, so bear with me if I ramble.)

So far I can say I feel like it's warming. That makes me happy.
I can also say that this new computer is confusing to say the least. But I love it.
I fell like I'm running out of room to put my things, and already missing the two bedrooms. But I wouldn't change them.
Tomorrow Jasper will be 1. I feel funny celebrating his birthday, he's a puppy. But I will tell him happy birthday anyway.

This week hasn't been very eventful. I went to the esthetics program for the first day, and decided it was better off not to waste my time and my mothers money if I couldn't find my heart there. 10,000 dollars for five months is a bit much to waste if it's not what I really want to do. Now I just feel like a failure, but I know I can't call myself that because then it will only make me feel lazy and that I can't do anything, which isn't true. I've applied everywhere I can think of, now it's just the wait for who's hiring. But I did have an interview at the YMCA for childcare. I will find out by tomorrow night if she knows for sure what is open in Middletown. I hope something is, it would be great to say the least.

I bought myself a external hard drive tonight. I used 4% of it. Not that that's important information to anyone. I was just happy to finally have one.

And now I feel terribly tired and think I should be getting to sleep. Good night.

Spring would be nice.

I never realized how much I actually like warm weather. I was always the one to push for cold and snow and all that, but I find that as I'm getting older I want to see green grass and pretty flowers all over the place. I'm still not one for the summer time heat, but Springtime warmth I miss. The days where you could push it to wear shorts and you wouldn't be cold, but that you can still wear a sweater and not be hot. That is the weather I want. But sadly I have to wait a bit longer. I'm still excited to see snow though, I do enjoy that it looks pretty when it first falls and everything is a clean white color. But after if gets dirty and icy and just a mess, it doesn't look so peaceful and quiet anymore and then it's just sucky when it's all a slushy mess.

I have started a new diet today. Well I wouldn't call it a diet, but I want to eat better for myself. Given I don't eat much fast food (only when Tomek is here) and I drink soda maybe once a month, I can't say my diet is unhealthy. But I need more of a balance. I need to eat a breakfast, lunch and dinner. I want to enjoy more fruit and veggies and make healthy shakes for myself. I'm still not a big salad person, but I'm getting there. I think I would also like to make sure I get in some daily exercise. I sit by the computer and sleep way too much. But Monday school starts for me so I will be getting up early again and coming home at 3:30. I will be more on a schedule and it will be easier for me to push myself to eat and move around.

Tomek leaves tomorrow already, not exactly thrilled about that. Two weeks is not enough together for me. Especially since he isn't just an hour or two away. Or even a 2 hour plane ride, which would be so much better. But I think we do really well for ourselves, making this work for 2 years now. And even though he's far, I'm happy I have him in my life and I couldn't imagine it without him. I'm sure Sabrina will be here this weekend, she didn't get to come for New Years, so she's anxious to see me. And when I say me I mean my new MacBook that I got. I think she's more excited then I was lol. I got it in Decemeber, an early birthday present. But I have to pay half of it. (Since I didn't want the little one.) And I got a blue cover for it, it came in the mail yesterday :)

Now I just need to push myself to drive. I think that's the most important thing for me to do this year, and I will do it.
(He wants to shop.) So I must go and continue writing more whenever. Ciao.

2010.

Well it's official, it's here, a brand new year. 2009 was an amazing year for me. Sure there were ups and downs and mistakes and great times, but most of all I think in the past year I've grown up a lot. And this new year, which I'm really looking forward to, better be better or at least just as good as the year behind us all now. I'm excited for it. To start school, to be more of my own person, instead of the little princess everyone knows. This year I want to push myself to do things, I think at most thats my resolution. I want to get out there and do things, see things, capture moments in time that will stay with me forever. I want to learn and grow and it's going to happen all of it.

Everyone gets hyped up to live out their resolution, but not many actually do. I hope everyone who made one for themselves this year keeps it, because I'm surely going to try my hardest to do just that.

Aside from that, I'm 19 today. I don't feel any different. Which I guess is a good thing. I could of woke up with aches and pains and a terrible headache, but I woke up good, and last night was good. And I really believe that this year is going to be just as amazing. So I wish you all a Happy 2010 and that you follow through with the things you want, and most of all, ENJOY IT!

There's a lot ahead of me, and I can't wait to get started on it.