10-10-10

I have taken a well needed break from blogging and feel like today should be documented to some extent. Originally I wanted to make a video but I don't see that happening right now haha.

I almost forgot to look at the calendar today, not that today holds any special meaning to me or anything. For some reason I love when the dates are 10-10-10, or last year was 09-09-09. It's nothing special I guess, but if you actually think about it, this is the first and last time in your lifetime, in my lifetime that the days will line up like this. 12-12-12 will be the last time the dates will ever line up like that for a long, long time. I just think it's something cool to think about and to actually think how far time has come and I wonder what it will be like, or if the world will even be here to experience another date line up. I guess I'm just weird about those things.

Today is almost over for me, more than halfway anyway. Tomorrow I have to go to a training for my job, not exactly looking forward to it, but I suppose it's something I have to do. Right? Anyway, I think that is all I really wanted to talk about. It feels nice to write in here once in awhile. I think I should try a new goal, to blog at least 2 or 3 times a week. Let's see how well I actually keep that one up...

Day 30, Finally.

Today has been more hectic then ever and even though I feel like I want to continue this blogging every day thing, I don't see myself keeping up with it, even though yesterday I did.

I went shopping today and bought myself some new pretty colored nail polishes, had dinner and now I'm going to lay in bed watch Vampire Diaries and then get some sleep because I am tired beyond all belief.

Work today was so stressful to the point I was ready to cry. The kids would not listen for anything and I felt like I was on super overdrive and I couldn't slow down for anything, it was horrible. I'm so thankful to be home and that tomorrow is Friday and I have two days to relax and hopefully really get some time to myself.

I bought myself a venus fly trap plant today, I'm super curious to see how that goes haha. I guess we shall see :)

So this will be my final blog until I feel like updating again. Who knows maybe this got me on some type of schedule so I update more often. I guess time will tell.

Day 29, Today has been..

Almost okay. Work wasn't bad, well as busy as it usually is I should say. So that made the day fly by pretty well. And now that I'm home I feel like I have a world of things to do before tomorrow comes and not enough time to do them. In reality I don't have that much to do, but I feel like I do. Maybe because I work all day and when I finally have time to myself to do things I feel like I have to catch up on so much its ridiculous. I should be able to just come home, throw some sweats on and relax with a drink and some tv. After all of it though, I'm glad I do have the job that I have. It's hard work during the day, but I guess I shouldn't complain because I could have a really horrible job somewhere else right? It also helps to love the people you work with, and after October my favorite person that I work with is going back to school and leaving me! And I'm really afraid that they will replace her with someone I am not so crazy about and then I will really hate going to work. Does that make sense? I think it does anyway.

Besides all that, 1 more day left to September and then my goal will have been completed. I will have blogged, maybe not a lot but at least something every day for one whole month. I wish I would of wrote more some days but, what can I do, right? I guess we'll just have to wait and see what tomorrow brings. Maybe I'll push myself for another month, who knows.

Day 28, Bam.

If I was 13 again, today I would be celebrating Bam Margera's birthday. Why I still remember his birthday to this day is beyond me, but terrible headache. So I'm off to watch my shows and eat some oreo cake and then get some rest :)

Day 27, Don't even.

Don't even get me started. As much as I love kids, I don't think I like working with them as much as I thought I did. This could pose a problem, but until I figure out what to do with it I guess I'm stuck. What to do, what to do.

Day 26, Driving.

So today I went driving with my mom, I started learning how to parallel park and may I say that for my first time, it wasn't too bad. I think anyway. Other than that I just sat around and cleaned and organized my room. Now I think I'm just going to do some online shopping. I don't think I'll find too much but I shall be looking nonetheless. I suppose that was my day in a nutshell. It was a pretty decent one, especially considering it wasn't blistering hot out :)

Day 25, Peanut Butter.

I made chocolate cupcakes with peanut butter frosting from scratch today! Nothing was out of a box, except flour and butter and such items. And they turned out pretty well I think. The icing has to be my favorite though.

I think that's it for now. Tomorrow I'm off to practice parallel parking so that should be fun. :)

Day 24, Seriously.

I'm over this goal of mine haha but I have 1 more week to stick it out and then at least I know I have accomplished something.

Had work today.
Went to dinner with my bestie.
Shopped.
Had ice cream.

Now home to sleep. Goodnight.

Day 23, Fast.

September kind of maybe needs to end fast. This challenge of mine is getting tedious and I keep almost forgetting to write this until I'm tired and ready for bed. Gah :(

Day 22, Aggravation.

Today has not been the best of all days. I had a doctors appointment this morning and they scheduled me later in the afternoon to have bloodwork done. So I was told not to eat and just drink water this way they could get clear results on my tests or whatever. Here I am fasting all day, so hungry to the point I was physically sick and light headed, on my way to the doctor again only to find out that the blood is not necessary today and they don't want me to pay any unnecessary fees due to something with my insurance. WTF! I am beyond angry that I couldn't eat all day, see I should of splurged it wouldn't of mattered anyway, right?

Anyway, back to work tomorrow finally. I never thought I could be bored sitting at home but I like my job. It's crazy sometimes, but I like it. It's money and it's also something to do, rather than sitting home and watching the food network all day and itching to cook alllll day everyday.

My belly button is doing better but I tend to forget its there sometimes and accidentally bump it with my finger or pull my shirt the wrong way and then it hurts. But all in all I think it's doing well and I love it. I just can't wait until I can put in new colored jewelry!

Day 21, Long Day.

In all honesty, I have no clue what to talk about today. Be back here tomorrow?

Day 20, Good Day.

Today was a good day, work was good, after work was good too. I sucked up my fear and I went and got my belly button pierced, I made an appointment on my lunch break to go see my cousin and she did it for me at the new shop she opened with a few of her friends. I like it so far, but it's a little sore. Naturally. I can't wait to get pretty colored jewelry for it. It was also a plus because it definitely didn't hurt as much as I thought it would. :)

Day 19, I need a new hobby.

Alright so my thing was that I was going to do better with saving my money, but now that I know I have a source of income, I want to shop all the freaking time!! I need to stop haha.

I bought
- 2 new jeans
- a shirt
- new winter jacket (which I did kind of maybe need.)
- Extra stuff that I don't need.
- Chocolate.

Like I really need a new hobby to keep me from spending money. Sure I don't blow it all, I still have a lot left, but its the idea of it anyway. Hopefully I'll get better at it :)

Day 18, Stormville.

Today was Stormville, I really don't need to say more, I'm exhausted. I need to rest. I'll write about the day tomorrow.

Day 17, Nails.

So I painted my nails with this new purple polish I bought. 45 min ago. They are still not dry! I am typing so ridiculously its kind of funny even. I don't understand why they aren't completely dry :( its seriously annoying me. It must be ridiculously thick or something :/

Stormville is tomorrow, not looking forward to waking up at 430 to leave for 5 and get there at 6 and then unpack and sell garbage (to me anyway) all day. Then come home and be exhausted. But at least they always have a great pickle cart and I get really yummy pickles :) I guess that's a plus.

Maybe I should be getting some sleep soon? I think so.

Day 16, Rain.

It's been raining outside since 3pm today. It hasn't thundered or anything, disappointment :(

Work was good today and Saturday is Stormville, a really big flea market, I hope we sell and make a lot of money :) that would be good!

Well now I'm off to bed to listen to the rain. Wonderful :)



--Why do I feel like these are short diary entries? This is not the type of goal I had for a month, I wanted to actually write something, but I see so far it's a lot harder than I was imagining. Oh well I will keep up the best I can.

Day 15, AH!

AH!!! I almost forgot to write in this thing today!
And I still have nothing to say....I'm going to bed.

Day 14, Sick.

I really don't know if I will be able to keep up with this everyday thing. I don't even want to write right now lol.

Work was decent today, I brought in smores "rice crispy" style snacks and everyone liked them so that was a plus :)
There was a lot of diaper changing, which sucked but hey it's part of my job.

I feel a bit sick right now which is not cool because it is absolutely beautiful outside, it's warm but cool at the same time. My favorite weather.

Tonight Life Unexpected and One Tree Hill has its season premiers for fall, so I will be up watching that. But I've been so tired lately that I don't exactly know how much I will be watching.

What should I have for dinner?

Day 13, Hey hey you can ask iJ!

I got this in the mail today in magenta :D lol

Day 12, Rain.

Today is a lazy rainy day, thus I am going to do what I need to do and relax the rest of the day :)
I am still on a baking kick and I really want to make cupcakes again.

Day 11, 9/11.

Today was the 9 year anniversary of September 11, 2001. I'm not sure what I have to say about it, I was pretty young when it happen and no one I knew was affected directly, so I can't even begin to imagine how important and painful this day is for others, and my heart goes out to all of them.

But on lighter notes, Sabrina is here visiting me for the weekend and we did some shopping today and had a failed attempt at making a music video for old times sakes haha. Big Fail.

Tomorrow is Sunday already and there is no way that I'm ready for it to be Monday and back to work. I wish weekends lasted longer :(

Day 10, TGIF.

Thank God it's Friday! That's seriously all I have to say today.

I'll be back tomorrow.

Day 9, Cupcakes!

Tomorrow is my grandfathers 71st birthday, so thus I am making him cupcakes tonight. Lately I have been obsessed with baking, pies, cakes, cupcakes, cobblers everything! I should open my own bakery haha.

Work was crazy again as usual, except today is a heavy over cast, wind and its chilly, I absolutely LOVE it! To me this is a beautiful day, but I could use just a pinch of sun here and there to make it a less sleep in your bed all day, kind of day.

Writing every day is a lot harder than I thought it would be. I write every day so I don't have much to talk about. Who wants to hear about my day to day work experience? I bet no one haha. It would be repetitive and boring. So I think it's best for me to keep these posts short :)

Bye. :)

Day 8, Hot :(.

Why can't the weather be getting any cooler? It sucks when we have to take the kids outside and stay and run around in the heat, plus then all the kids are sweaty and sticky and grabbing wanting to be picked up, its totally not fun haha.

Now I'm home for a bit and then at 6 I have to go back for dinner and a staff meeting, hey at least they're providing dinner :) But I still hate that I have to go back.

Today was hectic again, but I'm a little less tired than yesterday and I don't feel like Sh**. :) Like I did yesterday.

All I want to do right now is go somewhere and take sunset pictures. There's nice clouds and I feel like there will be a nice sunset today, but it wouldn't matter considering I can't take the pictures now anyway. Maybe I will get a chance to do some this weekend, and get some nice fall colors on the trees too :)

Day 7, Exhausted.

At least I'm posting. Work was hectic, had 13 kids in the morning 12 in the afternoon, all new kids. I'm way too tired to even be sitting here. Night :)

Day 6, Complaining.

Yeah so I moved my two desks around. I took my older one from the storage room and brought it to my bedroom, and now Im testing it out. It's a lot higher than my other one and I feel like this might be a problem. I'm uncomfortable already, and I can't fit my chair where I want it to go. Why do I always have to have such complications? I can never keep my room in one set up, I'm always unhappy with it. I think I just need to take the time and go desk shopping and just make it work.

Today was another nice day out. I tested out my new fall boots. They are superb :)

Yeah this is definitely going to be a problem if I want to type a lot. My forearms are leaning the wrong way and I don't like it. Gah :/

Plus, I have too much "office" junk. I have paper and clips and tacks and printers and pens and everything allll over. And I don't like when my room looks cluttered. I just have a lot of issues don't I?

Enough of my complaints for the day.

Day 5, Chilly.

Today I went shopping again. I found a cute pair of boots for the fall and early winter so of course I bought them. I also bought myself 2 new candles, which technically I didn't need they just smelled really good. :)

Now I am cleaning my room and going to clean Lulu (the hamster) and Nemo (my fish). And after all that I think I will go out back to my hammock with my new book and read a little. I think that sounds like a plan.

For some reason I really want to the the sims, but I don't think I have the patience to sit by the computer right now, it's so beautiful out :)

It almost feels just like fall, there's some clouds, the leaves are just starting to change, there's a nice breeze and its just beautiful. I can't get enough of it. See you tomorrow :)

Day 4, Shopping.

So I made a checking account the other day and got my debit card in the mail today. First fun day shopping :D I think this debit card could possibly be a problem. Usually if you don't have the money on you, you don't get anything you can't afford at the moment, now I can say oh I have "so much" in my bank and can use this thing here! I'll have to learn to be good lol

Today I looked at beds. I am in need of a new one, so while I'm at it I want a headboard and a footboard and found something that I really like. So my next check I might be getting that. I also purchased an iJustine t-shirt offline, so I can't wait for that to come in the mail.

Other than that, not much happened today. Except that with Hurricane Earl on it's way up the coast its been dark clouds on and off today and really windy. Which I am super happy about. It's so nice and chilly and just perfect, it's been a really beautiful day so I'm happy about it.

Day 3, Thoughtful.

Today was an overall good day. Sure there was work and whatever. And my alarm going off at 6:30. But today was good.

At work, some of the kids in my classroom will be moving up to the "dinos" room. It is 1 step up from our "angels" room. So one of the little boys that is in my class, him and his mother made a flower pot with blue and green rocks and somehow made sticks with two hershey kisses on top and they look like tulips. I don't know if that was explained well, but its a flower pot with hershey kiss flowers lol. And they attached a picture of the boy holding a sign saying "Thank you Miss Rion." and the other two teachers that work close with him got 1 for each of them too, with different pictures, same sign, different teacher name obviously. I thought it was super sweet, especially considering this particular boy was my little favorite :D I will miss him, thank god he's only in the next door class room for bigger kids! I can see him whenever lol.

Whoa, that was a lot. So other than work not too much has been going on. I saw 'The American' last night with my friend. Stupidest movie EVER. There was no real storyline, almost no speaking, I had no clue what exactly the movie was supposed to be about or any meaning to it at all. It also had a ridiculous ending, that made no sense whatsoever. I don't recommend it.

The weather is hot and humid, so the sticky air is nothing fun. I'm off to cook dinner and make more heat. Blah.

Thank God this is a 3 day weekend :D Labor day on Monday! Talk to you tomorrow :D

Day 2, Fail.

Yeah I wanted to have something good to write in here, but I'm just in a bad mood right now and I do not feel like blogging. So this is the closest I'm coming to it. At least I'm keeping on with my goal and making the entry. Sorry this sucked.

I hope your day was better.

Peace.

Day 1, New Goal.

So I have decided a few days ago that on September 1st, for one month, everyday I would write something on this blog. Whether it be about my day something I have to get off my chest or just any random nonsense, but non-the-less, there will be something in here everyday for this next month. Or, I'm going to try my best anyway. So this would be my first entry, it's early in the morning before work, so I can't go in detail about anything because I have to get ready and make sure I have everything set before I have to get my butt out of the house.

Off to say, I'm excited that it is September today, it will be starting to cool off soon. Thank God! Yesterday was so hot for no reason at all, and it is not fun to take children outside for 30-40 minutes in the heat, running and chasing after them. I was never one for the heat and humidity, so I'm sure I complain a lot more than average, but can you blame me? Unless you're at a beach or by a pool, the heat is fairly pointless to me. Warm is nice, heat is not.

I supposed this will be conclusion to day 1 blog, so I hope I keep up with this :)

I write, you read.

So I feel like blogging. I apologize in advance if most of this is random garbage that you don't feel like hearing about. I just feel like talking :)

So...work has been quite the adventure so far. My first week ( last week ) went fairly well, except for two kids who tear me and all the other staff members up. We will just call them Horror 1 and Horror 2. Horror number one thorws his cups and snacks, spits and hits anyone who he is mad at. And horror 2 is pretty much a mirror image, except horror 1 is far much worse. They don't listen to me or anyone else and horror 1 tends to run away from us when we go outside for a walk. So his hand is to be held at all times, which isn't fun when he bites your hand so you let him go. Mind you, they are 2. I can't imagine what home life they have, all the other kids behave, sure they have their days, but the majority of them, I have to say, listen. Thank God.

But I have been making friends (girl friends, finally) at my job and a few notable ones are amazing. (Dana, Megan, and Stacey ) :)

On a lighter note I have been driving, and all in all it's definitely not as freaky as I made it out to be and hopefully I will have my license soon enough and can be more independent. I never cared before if I went alone somewhere or had to wait for a ride, but now and more often it really bothers me that I have to wait for someone is too tired to take me. So I'm proud of myself that I'm going out and doing that.

I think I might have been lucky in dodging a cold, but I will still take my precautions, which technically means I should get my butt to bed in a little so when I wake up at 645 I'm not exhausted and can get to work in a decent mood. I have also decided that when I get my next paycheck on the 30th I'm going to take the plunge and get a tattoo. I want a bunch of them but have yet to save the money and suck it up to get it done. I'm anxious to have art and something that means something to me on my body but I am not looking forward to the pain to get it. But I can be a big girl about it, especially since it's something I have always really wanted.

Well, I think I might have exhausted my fingers, if that's possible? Haha, I don't know. I hope everyone is doing well. I'm outty :)

Finally!

Hey there. I realized I forgot to update this for awhile now, so here I am. I have good news! I have finally got a job. Primetime Early Learning Center. It's a daycare pretty much and I will be working at it starting this Monday! I'm happy. I finally have everyone off my back about work and can relax and know soon enough I will be getting a paycheck to start paying for my car and whatever else I find I need.

I also bought a hamster. Which I forgot smelled really bad. How you forget something like that I have no idea, but I do not have the heart to return her and make her feel unwanted, even though I'm sure she really wouldn't know the difference. Her name is Lucy, but I mainly call her LuLu and she seems to respond to me well, but she doesn't like to be held, so that's something to work on. Jasper also needs to work on her a bit, when she's in her running ball on the floor, he wants to chase her, well the ball I think, but I don't let him.

I also have Sabrina here again, I enjoy company. I don't like being alone too much. It also helps when I'm away from Tomek to have someone to do things with or watch tv or a movie. But once work starts I'm sure I will be happy to be given some alone time. Sabrina and I moved my room around tonight, I felt the need for a change, maybe I will change up my wardrobe or hair next. I feel like a new me, it's not like I haven't had a job before but this is the first one where they have told me they would really like to put me on full time if my first week goes well. And the best part is they only stay open 'til 6:30, so I will have early nights and not late ones like I would at a mall job or something...

I have also bought myself a blank cookbook and every time I make something I feel worth remembering I will neatly write the recipe down so I can have it always. I kind of wish the weather would cool down a bit too. It's been crazy hot and heavy that it's hard to breathe, I think I had my summer and now I'm ready for autumn already. September/October please?

I think I spilled enough on here for a few days at least. I hope everyone is having a wonderful summer!

Quick Blurb.

Just a quickie to have something to do for a minute. I have just today and tomorrow and then Sunday morning and then I'm off. These last few days I feel sad all the time and I know I should only start to feel sad after I leave and enjoy the moments that I have now, but I'm a girl and I think most girls are sensitive about touching things to them right?

Anyway, I brought my suitcase up from the basement today and later tonight and tomorrow I will be packing. I'll do my last shopping tomorrow and spending the day with Tomek. Tonight we are going to see his friends again for just a little bit, which I don't mind. Like I said, it's something to do.

I miss everything about home pretty much, except for the fact that I will be away from Tomek again. I know lately this is all I've been complaining and talking about in my blogs, but it's what's going on for me now. Hopefully when I get home I will have better things to talk about. Like how I'm going to get a hamster without anyone knowing haha.

Okay, well talk to you once I get home.

Cooling off.

We had our heat and now the weather seems to be cooling off a bit here. I guess I can't complain it was really hot the past few days where we didn't even want to take a walk anywhere because it was bad. But now it's been showering at night and it seems to be lowering the temperature just a bit, I hope not too much though, I would like to tan just a tiny bit more before I go home, but I don't feel like I'm any darker, I feel like I'm as dark as I'm going to get now, but I will keep trying!

Someone this morning turned off the power in the building and then it was back on an hour later, not happy about that. Every time the power goes out our cable box shuts off completely, even when it comes back on. Now Tomek knows how to restart it, but guess what, he's working today, and even though he's told me how to fix it, the thing is being stubborn thus I don't have tv for the day. Not amped about that.

It's Monday already and Tomek works just today and tomorrow and then I have him to myself until I leave, which is really nice and that makes me happy. I just hate to face reality that no matter what we do, time is going to go extremely fast. I miss Poland a little bit every time I leave, but there's nothing like home, and I do miss Jasper. But there is really only one bad thing about going home and that's being away from Tomek, it's not fun at all, especially the first few days of being away from him, then it slowly gets better and back to normal. I'm kind of nervous to leave too. When I get to Dublin airport to catch my plane for NY I guess I have to recheck myself in, not my luggage just me, but I never did that before I always had my tickets (both) and never had to, so it's something new that I have to figure out and I'm worried about it, thank god they all speak english there so it will be super easy to find out if I can't do it by myself.

I'm really not sure what we're going to be doing these last few days, I hope we do a little something, not big but I don't want to spend my last few days with him just in the apartment. I would like to take a few walks and do my final shopping (which he will definitely take me for) and even though I'm not crazy about hanging out with his friends all the time, in the last few days I don't think I would mind to get out and go have a drink or walk around the town, I think it's something to do and I shouldn't complain about it.

When I get home Sabrina is coming right away on the 16th, which I'm happy about. I will have a few days to myself to fix things up and then I will have company and I won't be alone again. What we're going to do no clue, but the fair will be soon, so I'm a bit excited about that. It's not the same as when I was a kid, but I still love going to walk around and indulge in deep fried oreos haha. Right away too is job searching. Everyone is home for the summer from school and I'm sure it will be a challenge finding work. Especially since my ideal job would be to work with kids. I think I'm good at it. I've been working around kids for around 7 years, helping my grandmother teach religion at the church for most of the 7 years and then working at the after school program. I really love working with kids and somehow I think that might be my calling, for a more serious job, but I don't think I would want to be a teacher. I hope I find something when I get home though, it would be really nice to have a little money coming in.

I think for now I should go and make myself something to eat, if I can find anything. That is the one beauty about home, I miss having whatever I want whenever I want, because there's always something there. Here not so much. But it works for vacation time haha. Okay, well talk to you all soon. I can't believe I leave on the 11th already. :(

1 week and a half

Hey there... I can't believe how fast time is going.. I have less than 2 weeks here already. I have today, tomorrow and the weekend and then next week and then I'm gone.. :( Being away from Tomek is horrible, it's really something that I hate doing. But until we can work it out otherwise, both of us just have to deal. He would like to try to come again in the winter, so I hope it works out that he can, and I hope I have my license by then, this way I can take him places, not my grandma or my mom having to take us.

Yesterday we went to Krakow and it was a good day. We saw Eclipse and I thought it was really awesome. I saw the Harry Potter trailer too and I can't wait for that! It looks like its going to be an amazing two part movie to end the whole thing. I feel old when I think about Harry Potter lol, I remember when the first movie came out when I was like 10 or 11 and now the movies are almost about to finish, it's crazy!

The weather here has been pretty hot lately, which I'm happy about, I can tan and at least we can go outside and do something, and not worry if its going to rain. Today however, it's a bit cloudy but its still really warm outside, I wish I could poof my air conditioner here for us to use at night, but he doesn't like the loud noise it makes haha, so I guess that's out of the question.

I think I have just about all my presents done, I've got two toys for Jasper, I'm getting my mom and family some candy, not a lot because we really don't need it all, plus I'm afraid it will all melt in my luggage haha. I got Sabrina some candy and I'm getting her something special for her hair that I think she'll like, I bought my bestie Annie a thing that's sort of an inside joke, but I know she'll get a kick out of it. And I wanted to get a duvet cover for myself buuut they don't have the size I need for my comforter, so I'll just bring little odds and ends home for myself. And really I think that's about all that I have to bring home..

I really don't want to leave Tomek so soon, but I do admit I miss Jasper insanely, and even my crazy family I miss. But I always feel like it's harder being away from Tomek than being away from my family I guess, I don't know. Because even though he hogs most of the bed at night and it drives me nuts, I would rather be able to sleep with him, than sleep alone. Sure Jasper is there, he's like my little baby, but it's really hard being away from the person you love for long periods of time. Especially when they're a 9 hour plane trip away. I would even settle for a 3 hour plane ride, but that won't be happening anytime soon.

I really hope that my last week and a half here goes well, I don't want to be arguing about nonsense or upset over stupid things, I just want to have a good time and enjoy our time together and my time here. I have no idea when I'll be able to come here for two months or even a month again, once I get home and start working I mean. So I really want to make this last week and a half slow and drag it out, no matter how much I might miss my animals and home.

Anyway.. for now I think I'm going to try and make a youtube video, I've been wanting to for a few days so I'll go and give it a try and then have lunch and then Tomek should be home soon, so that makes me happy :) I'll write again soon!

Summer

Welcome Summer! Though by the looks of the weather outside and temperature I feel like it could be early spring. I'm not begging for 90 degree weather but, the 70's and 80's could be nice. I would like to be able to enjoy being outside a little bit more.

Right now I'm just sitting in a chair, writing down whatever comes to mind, which right now isn't much since I haven't been doing anything really. Tomek has been studying like crazy, he has a lot of exams coming up since it's the end of his semester almost. Which doesn't leave him and me very much time to do something or go somewhere. I came here with the hopes of actually going to see another country, even for a day to see Paris or Rome, but with his work and school, the days we have to do something are limited. He said he could take me to Warsaw, I've never been there before, but honestly, I don't really care to see too much of Poland. I have been here 5 times, and a lot of the big cities look similar and the small towns similar, I want to see somewhere new. But I knew in coming here that I was going to be bored a lot and there was a good chance we would be staying close to home, so I can't say that I was counting on the plans, I was just hoping..

Anyway, I've been on youtube a lot lately. Then again, I'm always on youtube. Youtube is probably my most used site on the internet, that and Facebook. I just love the freedom of youtube I guess. Normally I'm quiet and I keep to myself, I'm not the type of person to go around a store dancing with my camera recording myself. ( Though I do wish I had enough guts to do that. ) But on youtube I can be whoever I want to be, I can be crazy and loud, or quiet if that's how I feel. I can do whatever I want really, and the best part is, I don't care who sees me. Which is ironic in a way because in public, I do care. But youtube is a public site, it makes no sense, but that's why I love it.

I think for the most part though I'm enjoying myself here. I really do love being able to see Tomek, all in all that is why I came here. If I wanted to see just Rome or somewhere that's just where I would have to go. Right?

I've been hooked on True Blood lately. I've watched all of Season 1 & 2 here, and watching Season 3 on tv here. When I get home however, that's going to be an issue. I don't have HBO at home. Lame.

I guess for now I am going to go play Sims 3 and chill for the rest of the day. Hopefully tomorrow I will get to do something...

Mm tea

Here I am again.. a bit bored. Tomek is at work today which leaves me home alone for the day. I was thinking about going to take a walk but the sky doesn't look very happy and I would be very mad if it decided to open up on me without an umbrella. Maybe I will move the room around and when he gets home he'll be surprised. Haha I don't think that would go over very well.

Like I said the sky today is gray and I think it could rain at any minute. I'm kinda angry right now since I can't seem to find a suitable place for me to sit with my laptop other than the bed, and I don't really want to be in bed alllll day. So I keep moving around and I can't find a comfortable place. And Tomek's desk is way to high for me to get comfortable at :( that's what I get for being a shorty haha.

I don't know what I really want to talk about.

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So saving myself from writing nonsense, I'm going to drink my tea and watch the travel channel, and wish I could cook all the things on it.

Cold Rain.

Despite the heat wave that we've been having here last night we had a pretty big lightning storm. Given there was some thunder and extremely cold rain, the light show in the sky wasn't anything less than spectacular. There were bright purple spider webs all over the sky, the times where I wish I was better at saving money so I could of had DSLR camera and my tripod last night :(

Today is a lot cooler, I don't need the fan. Which I'm okay with, but I hope the rest of the time I'm here it doesn't stay cold like this. I want to tan a bit more before I get home.

I had my nails done before I came here and they're starting to get a bit long and I'm getting aggravated with them but I'm not quite ready to take them off yet.

Right now I am experiencing music ADD, I can't seem to keep anything for longer than 35 seconds. Or 5.

I think I'm going to go watch the travel channel, so I shall be backk.

Conclusion.

So I've come to the conclusion that I am in fact, a really bad blogger. I mean come on, March? For real.

I'm in Poland right now, it's hot outside, which is nice compared to all the rain we we're having just a week or so ago. I'm actually accumulating a tan and it's looking really nice. Hopefully it will hang on to my skin so when I get home I'll look like super nice haha. This is making no sense.

Anyway...hopefully when I get home I will be able to find a job fast so I can start paying my moms friend for her Suzuki, which I will be learning to drive, even if driving scares me to death, I have to learn and learning on a car that I actually really like and that will be mine once I pay her in full for it, makes it easier.

I've been using Twitter a lot lately it seems. I feel like I keep more up with all the sites I use when I'm in Poland. I guess 'cause I have a tiny bit more time here to do nothing than at home? Who knows. I'm actually not craving Starbucks this time around which seems like a miracle, but I would like some Blimpies haha.

Now I'm going to go sit on the balcony and read. I will try to push myself to write again soon.

Leprechaun Day

Good morning, or whatever time it is for you out there. I'm completely happy with the weather yesterday and today and supposedly the rest of the week which would be amazing. It's my favorite weather, springy weather! Right now I'm having a late breakfast and getting ready for the day. But this weather just makes me feel so happy and definitely more awake which is totally a good thing :)

I recently got my tickets for Poland. I'm going the end of May, until July 11. So a month and a half, not as long as I wish I could be with Tomek, but I'll take anything I can get to see him for a bit, I hate being away from him. I'm really going to miss Jasper though. And late night driving around with Annie. We'll just have to make time for that when I get home.

So Friday I'm going to see Alice in Wonderland. Sabrina has been telling me it was "AMAZING", so I'm trusting her judgement and going to see for myself. It better be good for what movies cost to see anymore. I could have a cheap dinner at a restaurant for what I'll pay, but I guess it is fun to go out and see a movie once in awhile right? Yes, of course.

I can't wait for my dinner later. But it doesn't feel the same as it did when I was younger. Then again none of the holidays feel the same as when I was younger. It's like it's just another day. Sure I like to decorate and send cards and dress to the occasion, but I don't think I really get excited like I used to. Which is a bit depressing. But when you're younger everything is more important that half of it should be haha. Like the monster under your bed, that was never there to begin with.

Well, I don't think I've posted anything in March yet, so I guess a very late Happy March? Which isn't even a holiday, but it's the bringer of warmer weather :) lol.

Ok well I'm going to enjoy my breakfast and get ready for the day and I will see you all again soon I hope.

Enjoy the weather!

February...

Where did this month go? Actually time in general haha. Tomorrow is March already... I always associate March as the beginning of warmth, so I hope it doesn't go about snowing anymore, but I guess I'll have to wait that one out and see.

I also don't have any cable, why I don't know. Actually it doesn't bother me that I don't have cable, I just thought I would put it out there.

Right now I'm playing with Jasper and cleaning my room. And I just felt like writing something. Even though I don't have anything important to say... haha.

My uggs are ruined, they're definitely not snow boots, but I knew that anyway. I guess next year I'll have to invest in a pair of actual winter boots. Then maybe my feet won't get soaked when I shovel snow or have to walk in it.

I feel like shopping, but I would actually need money for that. I also feel like moving. I'm in my phase again where I just want to up and leave and go somewhere new. Fact of the matter is, I would need to be able to drive, which I don't, and to move to Europe I don't have any qualifications so what kind of good job can I get? Whine whine whine, self pitty lol. I just have to work for it.

Anyways.... I feel like coloring so I'm going to go off and do that haha!

White ouuuut

The sky has been going crazy the past 2 days with this white stuff. It's snowing so hard right now I can't even see everything outside haha. Me and Annie were supposed to chill tonight, but with this weather I don't know what we're going to do. Jasper is enjoying the snow though, for the most part I guess, he sinks in it.

It looks so beautiful outside, and I don't want it to stop but, I would like to be able to get out of the house at some point. It's not the best driving weather... or even walking weather I don't think. A lot of people are without power, but *knock on wood* my house has been holding up for me.

I guess I'm gonna go clean and maybe go shovel a little, it's the only way I get to play in the snow haha. I don't have anyone to play with me :( I feel like a little kid with this lol.

1 Word.

Farmville.

Personally I blame my mother. If she didn't have to get her foot surgery, she wouldn't of needed me to send her gifts, thus I wouldn't be addicted. It's pretty fun though.

I can't believe the snow is still coming, I mean really? When can I have my green grass, blue sky, flowers, shorts and flip flops? Soon I hope. Then finally I can be tan again haha.

I completely failed at jeopardy tonight lol but hey, it happens. I'm no genius.

I think I need to clean and sleep though, I feel exhausted for no reason.

Little piece of winter.

For once I feel like we're having an actual snow storm. And I like it. Everything is white and it looks so peaceful and beautiful. I just want to sit on the little seat by my window with some cocoa and watch it fall down and cover everything. Snow snow snow! I love it. Though I still miss spring and my springtime attire... I can safely say that I'm happy I'm getting to see snow this winter, it wouldn't feel like winter to me if we didn't have a storm or too. It's also pretty funny to watch Jasper go outside and hop around, the snow almost covers him haha.

I hope you all are enjoying the snow day too. Unless you're somewhere where there isn't snow. Then you can't possibly understand what I'm saying.


Snoooow makes me smile :)

No show snow.

To say the least I'm disappointed. I was really expecting a least a dusting that would stay on the ground all day, but we didn't even get close to that.

Yesterday I hung out with Annie, whom I haven't spent time with in like forever literally, so that made me happy. Starbucks, the mall, pizza, going to diners late at night and having fun listening to some people snore haha. I had fun, its something I would like to repeat again soon.

Now family is here and we're going to be having dinner soon. Hopefully Tomek gets his butt online so I can talk to him finally. I miss him so much and its killing me that I have to be so far away from him for such long periods of time. But we make it work, and I love him, so it has to work.

I am being summoned haha, so I just wanted to tell everyone hello. And I'm happy. I need money. And that seems to be about it haha. ♥

4%

(I came here not exactly having a purpose of what I want to say, so bear with me if I ramble.)

So far I can say I feel like it's warming. That makes me happy.
I can also say that this new computer is confusing to say the least. But I love it.
I fell like I'm running out of room to put my things, and already missing the two bedrooms. But I wouldn't change them.
Tomorrow Jasper will be 1. I feel funny celebrating his birthday, he's a puppy. But I will tell him happy birthday anyway.

This week hasn't been very eventful. I went to the esthetics program for the first day, and decided it was better off not to waste my time and my mothers money if I couldn't find my heart there. 10,000 dollars for five months is a bit much to waste if it's not what I really want to do. Now I just feel like a failure, but I know I can't call myself that because then it will only make me feel lazy and that I can't do anything, which isn't true. I've applied everywhere I can think of, now it's just the wait for who's hiring. But I did have an interview at the YMCA for childcare. I will find out by tomorrow night if she knows for sure what is open in Middletown. I hope something is, it would be great to say the least.

I bought myself a external hard drive tonight. I used 4% of it. Not that that's important information to anyone. I was just happy to finally have one.

And now I feel terribly tired and think I should be getting to sleep. Good night.

Spring would be nice.

I never realized how much I actually like warm weather. I was always the one to push for cold and snow and all that, but I find that as I'm getting older I want to see green grass and pretty flowers all over the place. I'm still not one for the summer time heat, but Springtime warmth I miss. The days where you could push it to wear shorts and you wouldn't be cold, but that you can still wear a sweater and not be hot. That is the weather I want. But sadly I have to wait a bit longer. I'm still excited to see snow though, I do enjoy that it looks pretty when it first falls and everything is a clean white color. But after if gets dirty and icy and just a mess, it doesn't look so peaceful and quiet anymore and then it's just sucky when it's all a slushy mess.

I have started a new diet today. Well I wouldn't call it a diet, but I want to eat better for myself. Given I don't eat much fast food (only when Tomek is here) and I drink soda maybe once a month, I can't say my diet is unhealthy. But I need more of a balance. I need to eat a breakfast, lunch and dinner. I want to enjoy more fruit and veggies and make healthy shakes for myself. I'm still not a big salad person, but I'm getting there. I think I would also like to make sure I get in some daily exercise. I sit by the computer and sleep way too much. But Monday school starts for me so I will be getting up early again and coming home at 3:30. I will be more on a schedule and it will be easier for me to push myself to eat and move around.

Tomek leaves tomorrow already, not exactly thrilled about that. Two weeks is not enough together for me. Especially since he isn't just an hour or two away. Or even a 2 hour plane ride, which would be so much better. But I think we do really well for ourselves, making this work for 2 years now. And even though he's far, I'm happy I have him in my life and I couldn't imagine it without him. I'm sure Sabrina will be here this weekend, she didn't get to come for New Years, so she's anxious to see me. And when I say me I mean my new MacBook that I got. I think she's more excited then I was lol. I got it in Decemeber, an early birthday present. But I have to pay half of it. (Since I didn't want the little one.) And I got a blue cover for it, it came in the mail yesterday :)

Now I just need to push myself to drive. I think that's the most important thing for me to do this year, and I will do it.
(He wants to shop.) So I must go and continue writing more whenever. Ciao.

2010.

Well it's official, it's here, a brand new year. 2009 was an amazing year for me. Sure there were ups and downs and mistakes and great times, but most of all I think in the past year I've grown up a lot. And this new year, which I'm really looking forward to, better be better or at least just as good as the year behind us all now. I'm excited for it. To start school, to be more of my own person, instead of the little princess everyone knows. This year I want to push myself to do things, I think at most thats my resolution. I want to get out there and do things, see things, capture moments in time that will stay with me forever. I want to learn and grow and it's going to happen all of it.

Everyone gets hyped up to live out their resolution, but not many actually do. I hope everyone who made one for themselves this year keeps it, because I'm surely going to try my hardest to do just that.

Aside from that, I'm 19 today. I don't feel any different. Which I guess is a good thing. I could of woke up with aches and pains and a terrible headache, but I woke up good, and last night was good. And I really believe that this year is going to be just as amazing. So I wish you all a Happy 2010 and that you follow through with the things you want, and most of all, ENJOY IT!

There's a lot ahead of me, and I can't wait to get started on it.