December, Oh December.

I'm pretty proud of Jasper. He doesn't hate the tree. However, he does hate the moving santa statue that we have. He barks and pulls it down everytime someone walks by it. And for New Years, I don't think I'm going to get by unless he is giving some type of medicine. Which I hate to do, but if I don't there will be no party. Because he will eat all the people.

I start my Esthetics program on January 11. I'm nervous to start something new, but excited at the same time. I also think I'm going to go through with making my shirts. I've had the designs sitting in a book for a long 3 years, and I think it's about time I just take the plunge and see where I can get with them. If I fail, at least I'll know I tried, and who knows, maybe people just might like them. Which would be amazing to say the least.

Tomek will be here soon, and I can't even begin to say how happy I am.

I can't believe 2009 is almost over. Another year, gone by. Where does the time go? I can't believe for half of this year I was in Poland, where did that time go? I miss it desperately. And I can't wait to go back. I can't believe how some days seem to drag, but the whole year flies by before you even get a chance to grasp it. But there's another year to look forward to, more memories to make, more things to do, to conquer. More life to live.

Now I'm going to re-do some of my drawings and then hopefully get some sleep. Doing a bit of xmas shopping tomorrow. Night everyone.

Super.

Things have actually been going great lately, I have to say. I'm still doing my job hunt, but other than that things are super. Tomek is coming soon, New Moon is coming out and it'll be Sabie's birthday soon. Tomorrow I'm going back to the school to talk with the reps about signing up for January for the Esthetics program, which I'm stoked about. When I was visiting the first time I could just see myself doing that and it makes me happy that I think I've finally found something I can follow, instead of wondering what the hell I'm going to do.

But I'm worrying about Jasper for Christmas and New Years. First lets handle Xmas. He's going to hate the tree. He's going to pee on the presents under the tree or, rip them apart ( he thinks everything is his). Then there is the utter important fact of the ornaments. They will have to be put up very high, because if he knocks them down, they will become his new toy/s. And he will eat the metal or string that is holding them onto the branch. Definitely not a good thing. So I'm nervous about that.

New years, he bites new people that come in the house. He barks crazily and overall he doesn't do well with new people. If you come over more than once or on a regular basis, he will become your friend. But New Years is going to be a mass of people, it's going to be loud. Everyone will be new, and everyone is going to have a headache and annoy me that they aren't afraid if he bites and wants to pet and play with him anyway. But then when someone is going to get bit, they are going to yell that my dog is bad and shouldn't do that. So I'm going to have to put signs up all over "DONT TOUCH DOG" which isn't cool. And I don't want to sedate the poor thing lol.

Aside from those worries, life is going smooth and it's been amazing lately :) That's all I have to say.

51 days, 1 hour, 36 minutes

Yes! Yes, Yes, Yes! He's coming! So what, it's the day after Christmas, but he's going to be here for my birthday! And the "holiday" season. It makes me super happy to know that long distance isn't as hard as I thought it would be. I think most people take for granted every day that they can see their significant other. And then there are those (by choice of course, unless separation by death :[ )that don't get the chance to. So when I say I'm excited for it to be December, I mean it. Sure who doesn't love Christmas. But this xmas and my birthday I think will be the best I've had yet. And I get to spend it with him, which I'm by far grateful for.

Lately, there hasn't been much happening. Except the fact that I've been cleaning and job searching. Which is proving difficult. Mainly on my part that I'm picking on certain stores and jobs. I guess I just have to suck it up. But I have been taking pictures, which keeps me occupied and very happy to say the least. (www.missrionx.deviantart.com)

I hope the Yankees win this tonight! I would be disappointed if they don't. So far it looks good for them.

Tomorrow, I shall, clean more. I still have boxes beyond boxes to go through. I can't believe I have so many things. It's crazy. I confess, a lot of it, I don't need. But until I really want to get rid of it, I guess my room will just have to be cluttered.
Goodnight :]

Monday, monday.

Well, I think I feel a little better about Tomek. We talk on skype so that makes me feel so much better to hear his voice and see him. Jasper I don't think really understand that he's gone for awhile. But I'm very confident that I will see my baby for xmas :) and he is too!

The weather today is so cold. But I kinda like it :)
I'm going to go talk with my baby now :)

Everyone enjoy columbus day! haha

Boo hoo.

Ah I miss him. This is far more horrible than I thought. And on top of that, I feel sick to my stomach all the time. Last night I was sick at 3am, woke up. Yuck. This morning I felt great, now I feel sick again :( I hope I feel better tomorrow. And I hope I get to talk to Tomek more. He didn't feel well either. Maybe we ate something bad at the airport. :/

Okay well I guess it's time for me to sleep, so I can get myself better. Wishing my baby was here.

Night.

Dear me...

Why must time fly? I mean sure there are times when time flying is great, but I want this friday to be a million years away. I don't want Tomek to go back home. I know it's not the last time I'll see him, but I forget what it's like being away from him. After 8 straight months, this will be so hard :(

Now he's test packing to make sure everything will fit and within weight limits. And some things he'll leave here for me to send at a later date. Which I don't mind at all.

Jasper is cuddled up so cute by my leg, keeping it nice and warm. And I am watching about the earth on the history channel. Lately I feel like I would want to be an astronomer. All the universe things interest me so much its unbelievable. But I would fail all the math programs I would need in order to earn the degree. Why must I be horrible at math? Gr. But I think a medical esthetician would suit me. I think I would enjoy that job very much.

And for now, I bid everyone a good night :) sleep tight!

WTF?

So apparently, my grandfather is not a U.S. citizen. Or at least this is the answer soc. secur. is giving him for the reason he hasn't received his stimulus check yet. He was supposed to get it in July. He called. Oh it should be ready in about 2 weeks. He called in August. It's not ready yet, they will send it out asap. September. The same story and he told them they've been telling him that for weeks. So he did more calling around and they're telling him he doesn't have it because he's not a citizen. F**king stupid. It really pisses me off. Especially when I know that $200 would help him out a lot right now. Even if it doesn't go a long way, it would help. It makes me so angry. I say, we live in a great big stupid country.

Aside from the stupid complaining stuff. October is here which means my baby goes home soon. Noooo! :( *tears*
Jasper was neutered yesterday and thus has to wear one of those white head collar things. You want to know what they call them? Elizabethan collars. Hah! He gets to keep it on for 7-10 days. Lucky me. Not. Poor him. Yes.

Is it horrible that he looks so cute with it on though? Lmao.
Okay well, I'm going to pack up some of my things, because after Tomek leaves on the 9th, I have to keep occupied so I'm switching room with my grandparents. And that's a hell of a lot of work.

Ciao :D

Why must I be so lazy.

Yeah, I attempted a video. That failed. I'm way to tired to put my mind to work on correct language and sentences. Well ones that could matter anyway.

I also would like to say that I am officially tired of shopping anywhere in Middletown, due to the fact that whenever I am looking for a certain thing, guess what, they never have it. Or per say the clothes are too big or too small for my particular size. Thus no credit card to shop online, therefore, nothing new. Whomp.

Tomek has one month left here, I'm starting to get depressed already. I'm going to miss him insanely. Will someone keep me occupied?

Nothing is holding my interest right now. I'm exhausted but at the same time, I so want to do something. Eating is out of the question, I'm really trying to avoid eating while bored, that tends to lead to unhealthy habits, which lead to worse problems. And I'm really not hungry, it would just be something to do right now.

He refuses to watch any other movie but The Godfather, which I'm a bit tired of, since he's been watching it for 3 days already. Still not finished. Gah!

This is turning into a really long rant. I need something better to do with myself.

Bye. Hah.

Credit

I wish everyone would stop thinking of me as the spoiled little know-nothing princess. It's one thing for people outside my family to think that of me, but how on earth am I ever going to feel good enough to do something if my family and my boyfriend think that of me? All the damn time!!

Maybe this is my problem with life. The reason I don't want to do anything or go anywhere, be anything. Because I have no encouragement. How lame is that?

Parents are supposed to be there for you, not tell you that you're lazy or don't care about anything. Which in most cases is wrong, even though they think they know you 110%. My family in fact, doesn't know half of me that I used to be before I left. Sure there's a lot of the same me, but there's a lot different too. No, not just that I lost weight, not that anyone could tell. But the fact that I'm more independent is what they don't see and the chances I could have, they keep pushing me in other directions, directions I would prefer to go opposite of.

Gah, I need another vacation. Away from everyone. I hate to say it, even Tomek. But at least he's not as bad as my family. I think.

Long time no see.

Not too much has been happening lately. I guess everyone has been off my back a little lately, of course they still have their days. Tomek is working at my cousins farm a few days a week which is good for him, but I feel bad because when it's hot, the work seems even harder. As for me, I think I've decided that I will apply for OCCC and do a visual arts as a minor or major, I'm not sure yet, but I'm pretty sure I'm going to be going. Which I guess is good? I have a chance to meet new people right?

I still would like to have my own place though, that would be exceptionally nice. But I seriously don't see that happening ANY time soon. So I guess I just have to stick with things.

For the most part I guess I can't complain about the weather, it's been pretty nice out. Too hot and too cold aren't for me. I used to love the winter, but when it gets too cold I guess I don't like it. I need cool spring weather, like I had in Poland, that was nice. Or I need fall weather. It's nice when some days it's warm enough out that you could wear shorts or a tank top, but then other days it's not so hot that you can wear a sweater and not burn up in it. That's the kind of weather that I need. Anyone know where I can move to find that?

I got some free cooking magazines yesterday when I went to yard sales with my mom, kat and Tomek. So I'm going to experiment with them one by one. I hope I don't blow up the kitchen. No, I don't cook that bad, I don't think so anyway.

But I guess for now I'm going to get going. Make us some brunch, feed Jasper, clean and then I have no idea what to do.

Bye.

Lately

Ah what to say, what to say. It's been alright being home. But now the happiness is wearing off and it's just the same old same old. My grandma as much as I love her, gets annoying very quickly. And at the same time bothers Tomek as well. I used to think his mother was bothersome when I had a bad day or something, but Ivy just pushes his buttons. He is 20 years old, he knows how to melt butter by himself, though this morning she acted as if he couldn't.

And as much as you love your mother she tends to get to me to. All everyone seems to have on my tail is that I should be driving already, I should have a job, since Tomek has one here now, and I should have my mind made up if I want to go to OCCC or just find a job for the time being. But I have no clue. Driving freaks me out beyond belief. When I drive I just feel like I'm doing an awful job and I have trouble concentrating and doing things right and it makes me paranoid. And it's really starting to bother me that people keep pushing this on me. This is definitely something that should not be rushed, seeing as it should be taken seriously.

My family is no help teaching me to drive and I really don't want to have some stranger teaching me, they won't be as easy as a parent, they just tell you where to drive and you kinda have to right? I don't even like one car behind me, how can I drive down 17?

I mean sure I don't have it as stressful as others may, but I feel very stressed over everything. I just feel like I want my own place so if I don't make my bed, no one is going to whine at me. Yes they still whine at me if I don't make my bed. Seriously?

Other than the annoying stuff, for the most part other things are good. I'm happy Tomek is home with me. And I'm happy I still have 2 months with him. Though it's going to go fast :[ I'm happy this weather has been good! I'm happy when we went to Wildwood the weather turned out great and we had a blast together. And I think I'm pretty happy with myself, which I think is most important, otherwise I really would be miserable.

So, well things have been things. And I guess now I'm going to sit on my hammock and read a book :) it's unbelievably beautiful out!

Being Home

The trip home was nonetheless long, as was expected. Thankfully though, Jasper behaved better than I could of asked for. And he's also taking pretty well to his new surroundings. He likes to chase the cats haha. He still needs some warming up to my family, but that will come eventually.

Well as for me being home, I can say I'm happy being here. But of course with being home and dealing with my family again it gets annoying. Yes I missed them, yes I love them, but Kat (my moms girlfriend) is doing all her serious talking as usual, and that makes me not want to be around her because after awhile of talking constantly about serious things, it tends to get me depressed. But avoiding her also means avoiding my mother, and I feel awful in doing that. And of course I still don't drive yet, so that means everyone has to drive Tomek and me around, and he's not to fond of that.

Aside from that stuff, the fair starts tonight. We have a few free entry passes, more than enough to go a few times at least. But after going once, I don't know if Tomek will keep going. I wonder if we will go tonight or which day. It looks a bit like it wants to rain so if we go tonight, I hope the rain holds off until wayy later. I want my deep fried oreos haha.

But for now I think we're going to Petsmart, Jasper needs shampoo and of course I will let him choose a toy for himself. I might even get myself a Betta fish, but I might find something else.

Alright well I should get going for awhile have lunch and then later tonight I guess we're going to my moms for dinner. Then hopefully I think the fair. Maybe I'll run into some of my friends.

Byee.

Tahmorrow

Wow... I have just tonight left here. It's already the afternoon. I'm getting excited but then like, a little sad. I can't wait to see my family and friends and my other pets, I'm so curious to see how Jasper will take to them all.

Today I have to
- Get my moms things
- Visit his friend and family
- Have everything packed

And tomorrow we have to clean and double check all the packings, I don't want to forget anything. I also have to wear Jasper out in the morning so by the 5:30 flight he'll be a bit sleepy and hopefully won't be as stressed out. Ah I can't wait. I miss my house.

Tomorrow, Tomorrow, Tomorrow, Tomorrow!!!

Home

I feel like I should be home already. Time is going fast, but for some reason slow like at the same time? I'm not sure exactly even what I'm doing when I get home. But right now I'm putting off sleep because Tomek is being a douche. So he can watch his movie, I'm blogging. I would be happier making a video, but it's too late to be doing all that. Tomorrow, Thusday, we're going to Krakow for the last time as a trip and we have to get Jasper's health certificate and these people better have it. It's essential to get him in NY.

I would also really like to have an iced chai tea from Starbucks right now. Along with a wrap from blimpies. That would make my night right about now haha.

Right now we have something like heat lightning going all around the whole town in like a big circle, it's been this way for a few hours now. With occasional thunder. But now I hear more of it and some rain or small hail starting to fly about. Wow I hit backspace and for some reason went back a page and freaked and thought I lost all this writing. If I did I wouldn't of wrote it over haha.

I shall be home late Saturday night! Super excited. Going to give Jasper a bath tomorrow and get him all ready to be leaving. Then Friday finish packing everything... Wow. I feel like I still have so much to do.

'Ello

It's actually pretty hot outside today. I haven't done much yet. I bought candy for everyone back home and I thought I was going to get Jaspers certificate today, but I have to wait until tomorrow and then I better get it. We leave Saturday. Which I'm super excited about. I'm just about all packed already haha, there is just a little more left that has to go away. Tomek won't pack until Friday night, I guarantee it.

I was told sad news last night, my poor kitty Whiskers died. I was very upset, him and my other cat China both passed away while I was gone and now I feel like an awful mother for leaving them. But from what I know both of them went peacefully which is the best way of course.

When I get home I'm going to paint and redecorate my rooms, well only paint one, but both of them are getting new layouts and such. I should go to school for Interior Design, I love to change things around and design rooms and add new colors and furniture, move it around. But I probably won't go for that.

The stupid calling card won't work, so my grandma can't call me right now, which is what I am waiting for. I don't really feel like going out right now, I would rather go out later. When it's a bit cooler to walk around. Sure I'm liking that it's nice, but none of my shorts are out of the wash and walking around in jeans is really uncomfortable.

Okay I guess I will stop going on and on. No one reads this anyway haha. Bye bye.

Sooon.

In just about 7 days I shall be getting on a plane right now. At 5:30pm is when we leave. I packed one suitcase already, with the things I'm not using currently. I want to pack my other one, but that wouldn't be very smart seeing as I would put the clothes I need in there.

If my boyfriend would hurry up with whatever he is doing in the garage we're going to Klucze for awhile to hang with people cause it's our last weekend. Next week we're probably not going to get around to doing much. Just sitting around, go to Krakow one more time, visit his family. I bet that is all it will be haha. And I have to take Jasper to the vet for his certificate of health thing.

Hm.. what will I do first when I get home? On Sunday anyway, when I wake up? I think go food shopping hah. Okay well we're going. Talk soon. xox

12 days

I can't believe I'm coming home super soon. I'm getting really excited, but sure I can say that I will miss being here in Poland. When I get home, I need to find a job and then start school or a certification class somewhere. Still not exactly sure what I want to do, but I have some time to figure it all out. The plane ride from Krakow to Newark is 9 hrs 30 min. I've never been on a straight flight to or from Poland in the 4 times I've been here, so this is something new haha.

Right now I'm just sitting on the bed, the weather is really humid, but right now I don't feel it. Like all next week/this week is supposed to rain. I'm not happy about that. I would like nice weather before I have to go home and then nice weather when I actually get home haha. I mean I like the rain, but I've just seen too much of it lately, it needs to take a break.

Jasper is sleeping next to me, he looks so cute, I can't wait for everyone at home to see him. I hope he takes well to all the other animals. And I told my grandma and grandpa that I'm coming home on the 18th. Originally I wanted to surprise them and have them think I'm coming the 25th, but I'm getting to happy to see them, I couldn't keep them in the dark anymore and I'm glad I told them, they were super excited.

All my friends at home graduated this year, well not all, some are younger and still in school (sabrina.) But congrats to everyone in my senior class! I kinda wished I did stay the rest of the year, but I made my choice and I'm pretty happy I came here. When else do I get to spend this much time with my boyfriend right?

I feel like I'm just typing endlessly, so I guess I'm gonna get going for now. I'll try to be back and write soon.

Ciao.

Fudge sicle.

I'm actually losing a little interest in this idea, but it's giving me something to do for awhile I guess lol. I just finished uploading a reply on youtube and now I'm going to work here with the F's. Hope everyone is enjoying the end of school.







Farewelllll..... for now.
Again imageshack is being stupid. Bye.

Emm...

I don't really have too much to say today. I've got to mail things out at the post office and I'm going to try to convince my boyfriend to take me to Krakow, I'm tired of the apartment. So here are the Eeee's. Jasper is trying to catch a fly hehe.







Okay well imageshack is not working right now, so the pictures might be a little big, and if they disappear I will fix them later.

Dun dun dunn....

There is going to be a massive thunderstorm here in like 3 seconds, it's been coming on for over an hour now and I'm just starting to hear the thunder, but it's dark like it would be at 8pm, it's only 130 here. Oooo lightning and now the rain is here, with wind, I hear it. Anyway, proceeding to the d's...







Annnd now it's pouring haha. And now I really have to go. Bye

Click.

Not much has really been going on except..... SUN!!! Oh man it's a little cloudy but the sun comes out more often... the next two days are supposed to be a little rainy, but then SUN again :D finally haha, now I can bake myself a little. I'm getting pretty excited about being home soon. Sure as we all may know, I do love coming here and seeing friends and different shops and smells and landscapes, but of course as I think I mentioned, there is nothing like home and I'm getting so anxious, I want to pack already hehe. So as I promised, here are some C things.






Ciao!

B-b-b-Beehive.

So like I said, today is B-day. Listed below are things starting with B. That I like. Yay for the b's.










Bye-bye.

A is for Apple.

Exactly how many kinds of Apples are there? Holy banana, did anyone else know that there are 7500 varieties of apples grown world wide? I only eat red delicious and granny smith, plus I know a few more. But 7500- REALLY?? That's a lot of freakin' apples. But here are some pictures of the various things apples are used for.








As there are more I'm sure. These seemed the best to post for now. And tomorrow shall be day B haha. I'm going to try and do the alphabet.

Peace out.

Weather

What is up with this weather? I'm sick of the cold and the wind and the clouds and the rain!!! The sun peeks out if only for a minute and it goes away again. GRR! I used to love the cold and this type of weather but I'm so sick of it right now, it's been like this for a week and a half already... ENOUGH. And it supposed to be like this for still yet another week according to weather predictions. They've been right so far, so I guess I can't hope that they're wrong. Oh how I wish they were though.

I hate taking the dog out to pee because he takes too long and runs away from me and then I'm left in the cold and drizzle. Not to mention stronger winds because we're on a stupid hill.

Sorry, I'm done complaining.

Baby it's cold outside.

Gah, my eyes hurt. But I suppose that's what I get for staring at the computer so much. Not much going on here today, or any other day for that matter. I'm getting quite tired of sitting in the apartment all the time and getting very excited to be coming home soon. I love Poland, don't get me wrong, but there's nothing like home.

Speaking of home, The Sims 3 came out in stores yesterday! I know, friggen amazing right? But I have to wait another month and a half to buy it. Grr. It looks so awesome though. Doesn't it? Well to anyone who has seen the youtube page for it anyway. I think it looks like it's going to be so awesome! I can't wait to get my hands on it.

On other matters, I can't believe it's June already. I came here February 10 and already my time here is almost over. I really don't know where time goes, it's here one minute and before you know it, it's next month already. When I get home I really need a job before I start school at OCCC in January. Well that's my plan for right now anyway. I always wanted to do massage therapy, but the more I think it over, I think I might go to school to be a Diagnostic Imager or Physical Therapist Assistant. They are both two year programs, something I would like. I don't want to spend forever in school. I want to get out there and really start my life, in a job that hopefully I will like.

Currently the weather has been a pain here. It's been cold and rainy/cloudy since the end of last week. Which is no fun at all. All the tan I had is offcially gone and now I have to start from scratch again. So I really hope the weather starts being nicer, I would love to be able to go out and do things around town, or go to Krakow. It's no fun walking around in the rain. However, my puppy seems to be enjoying the little sun that is on our balcony right now. He's sunbathing. I can't wait to bring him home and have him meet all my other animals, I wonder how they will take to each other?

To be honest, this weather wouldn't be so bad, if it was warm rain or even a thunder storm. But it's not. So thus, it's boring, gray weather. I don't know what happened, I used to love being a couch potatoe and relaxing at home, now all I want to do is go out and shop or walk around, something my boyfriend doesn't like doing very much lately. It's like we switched places, super weird. He's the athletic energy boosted one, not me.

School is just about done for my friends at home. I wish I could be with them, experiencing those last few days of high school, but I made my choice and I am here. I am happy here, but of course, I miss my family and friends and even Middletown. Crazy right? Not many people think a lot of Mdtn, it's boring and there's not much to do. Well, after sitting here for a few months, I miss being bored at home. It's always going to be home, even if there is nothing to do there.

OH and who saw the New Moon trailer? I can officially say, I'm completely stoked for that movie to come out! The books are I think the first series of books I ever actually wanted to read and they actually got me started on reading more books, on my own time, rather than for school reports. Which I can say is an accomplishment, I used to hate reading, now I love it.

But I guess I should be going, I think Jasper (my puppy) has to pee.

Today...

Today I have admitted to myself that I miss school. Which is weird, because I wanted to get out of there. Well, mainly I wanted to get out of there so I could get here to Poland. I don't regret it so much, but I do miss seeing everyone and listening to boring teachers haha. I'm happy that I have so much time to spend with my boyfriend and that I have my puppy. But I miss my family and animals, of course my friends too. My grandmas 70th birthday is in 5 days, It's something I'm going to miss. But before I left I took her out to an early early birthday lunch, just the two of us, it was nice. She understands, and she wants me to be happy. And I thank her for that. I'm sure she, like everyone else misses me, but this was something I had to do. And when I get home, it's get serious time with work or school, or something. But for now, I guess I can say I'm happy with things. And whatever the future holds, I'm sure it'll be great things.

Cupcakes

Okay, so I thought while I'm super hungry, why not talk about sugary foods that I love. One of them being, cupcakes.
This here is a Chai Spice cupcake. I love chai, so I want to try this!!

These are just cute.
Oh come onnn, who wouldn't want to eat these ones?

When people are making cupcakes, do you think that they are thinking "ok, lets make the cutest cupcakes ever!"? I do, otherwise we wouldn't have cupcakes like these.


And that is it for cupcakes today.

Pizza!!

Ohh how I want pizza right now. Some nice dominos or pizza hut. Thank god they have a pizza hut here in poland, too bad it's 45 min away right now :(
I guess I'm just going to have to wait...
In the mean time.... I'm going to eat cheerios.

Sooner than later

Okay, so time has gone a lot faster than I would of expected. I remember when I was counting 32 days and now it's only 5. Don't get me wrong, I'm verrry excited. Excitement and nervousness are always fun together. First time flying alone, definitely gives me the nervous feeling, but I've done this enough to at least get myself along. I'm going to miss everyone sure, very very much. But I get to spend a long time with my boyfriend and that makes me very happy. There's a good chance I'm even getting to see Rome, somewhere I've wanted to go for a very very long time. And when I come home, it's get serious time hah. I really have to decide what on earth I'm going to do. But I have time, and I'm going to enjoy every second of it.