Lately

Ah what to say, what to say. It's been alright being home. But now the happiness is wearing off and it's just the same old same old. My grandma as much as I love her, gets annoying very quickly. And at the same time bothers Tomek as well. I used to think his mother was bothersome when I had a bad day or something, but Ivy just pushes his buttons. He is 20 years old, he knows how to melt butter by himself, though this morning she acted as if he couldn't.

And as much as you love your mother she tends to get to me to. All everyone seems to have on my tail is that I should be driving already, I should have a job, since Tomek has one here now, and I should have my mind made up if I want to go to OCCC or just find a job for the time being. But I have no clue. Driving freaks me out beyond belief. When I drive I just feel like I'm doing an awful job and I have trouble concentrating and doing things right and it makes me paranoid. And it's really starting to bother me that people keep pushing this on me. This is definitely something that should not be rushed, seeing as it should be taken seriously.

My family is no help teaching me to drive and I really don't want to have some stranger teaching me, they won't be as easy as a parent, they just tell you where to drive and you kinda have to right? I don't even like one car behind me, how can I drive down 17?

I mean sure I don't have it as stressful as others may, but I feel very stressed over everything. I just feel like I want my own place so if I don't make my bed, no one is going to whine at me. Yes they still whine at me if I don't make my bed. Seriously?

Other than the annoying stuff, for the most part other things are good. I'm happy Tomek is home with me. And I'm happy I still have 2 months with him. Though it's going to go fast :[ I'm happy this weather has been good! I'm happy when we went to Wildwood the weather turned out great and we had a blast together. And I think I'm pretty happy with myself, which I think is most important, otherwise I really would be miserable.

So, well things have been things. And I guess now I'm going to sit on my hammock and read a book :) it's unbelievably beautiful out!